and it continued… i managed to return the temporary access card.. draw some money from the atm.. all without incident! only to realize i had left my blazer upstairs in my cubicle..! so there i was.. stranded out of my office… with my blazer upstairs in the cold november breeze!

duly retrieved thanks to a good samaritan who works with me i headed to my car only to bang the door of my own car into my own eye! (please dont ask me how it happened… it being the day it was are you surprised?!)

exhausted.. and willing to hibernate away from all disasters for at least 3 days i now sit watching venus surrounded by a twinkling of tiny stars as lighting crashes somewhere in the back of beyond!

the silence overcomes… the cool november breeze feels nice on my fraught nerves as i settle down with a warm plate of food to peacefully watch the lava lamp morph into weird shapes…

puts ice on the eye and wishes upon a star.. [/exit manic monday]



it was a nice quiet long weekend and the monday happened!


but lets go back to the weekend which started on thursday… i love thanksgiving for the fact that work goes peacefully quiet and i indeed get something to be thankful for! ๐Ÿ˜€ a lazy thursday with driving a friend to infy and lazing around at her place and being awoken to a nice garam chai ki pyali followed by a movie marathon and some 18 year old monk in the attire of Mr Monk himself!


A lazier friday morning… mildly hungover and in a stupor… a very lets do nothing kind of day! those have become few and far between for me! So it was breakfast at 12.. lunch at 6 PM when the chicken curry finally got ready and dinner at midnight.. and yet another movie marathon!


It had been enough lazybumming and much nirvana had been attained…. it was time to get the butt moving finally… so it was a test drive for the Nissan Micra for a friend after which my own beautiful wagon r which i am truly madly deeply in love with inspite of its many scars and steering overhauling was feeling like a truck!! The auto ignition is a wonderful new toy and the gears are sheer bliss! The steering is like a well oiled wheel doing exactly as you command and the brakes can well… really break! ๐Ÿ˜‰


Thereon hunger beckoned and it was lunch with a friends prospective wife.. maybe it’ll happen maybe it won’t! But hey she was nice! ๐Ÿ™‚ If I met a guy who’s half as nice as her i’d probably say yes!


Food and friendly banter later it was time for a play in the evening at Rangashankara! The theatre has been jinxed for me with me missing 4 past plays – once we landed up on the wrong day, once we were late, once we reached and no tickets and i dont remember now what happened the first time! So getting the tickets and making it through namma bengaluru’s sat evening traffic after going honk honk, lane change, honk honk, screech, honk, lane change, honk, get outta may way like a mad woman on the run we made an hour before time, chilled out with some herbed butter toast and adrak ki chai and finally finally entered the famed auditorium where many a performance have been watched to be loved for long! It was worth everything!!!! It was 2 guys doing 41 characters and the play was “One Small Step!” We laughed and laughed and laughed some more!


A wonderful meal of Italian risotto and Cheese Cakes later it was snugly in bed awaiting the Sunny day which was again a wonderful mix of food and friendly banter all day long!


And then…




There was the Monday! The Horror!


It was unearthly anyways to have to go to be at work at 8:30 AM on a Monday when i’m normally rubbing my eyes awake at 10 AM! And then first the loss of an i card – with me thinking its fallen in the back of beyond of my glove box and then finally after a frantic search realizing that it was that once in a blue moon day that the i card actually left the car and went upstairs with me and so now is peacefully sitting in a purple bag at home! ~ sheesh! You’d think this was it… it was so much more….


me: then projector no

me: then lcd no work

me: then laptop get blue screen even in safe mode

me: so by now i have imagined the worst that can happen!

he: hmm…seems like ur ability to act as a self propelled jinx is back

me: helpdesk guy manages to work some miracle with the blue screen and in 2 hours the laptop comes alive

me: however lotus notes crashes

me: helpdesk guy is at a loss

me: saviour team mate manages to salvage it

me: it finally archives about 1500 emails

me: and all is slowly well! ( i spoke too soon.. i lost a test environment for 3 weeks!!!)

me: both helpdesk guy and teammate beg to get laptop formatted

me: they believe it is an act of God the machine is alive!

me: what else can happen on a Monday morning when ur made to wear full formals with blazer n everything n come to office at the unearthly hour of 830?

me: all the magnetism and the forces that be collide insanely with each other!

he: hmmm…u seem to have had a good time today


~ hari om ~ hurry home ~

do din

got up to a world of terrible pain yesterday… ย ~ and had 30 mins to leave home and then needed to drive 25 kms to far away office for an audit. so had missed breakfast.. after waking up at 7:30.. !
Post a semi gruelling audit was the 20 km drive to the office i normally go to – some work, some mishaps later i’m totally drained…
Thereon – bachchas and I go get some juice, have a leg pulling conversation and pack our bags to head home. Home feels nice with the lava lamp and the cozy bed. Dinner of a quick cut pomegranate and cucumber salad and some warm milk cures a lot. and then I put on some Paul Simon and start dancing to it.. makes me smile.. ๐Ÿ™‚ . and then i watch Karate Kid and am about ready to crash.
and so a much better day today than was yesterday…!
the morning hailed promise of it being just like yesterday with the aches and pains still remaining so i decided to go right back to sleep! ๐Ÿ˜€ finally woke up at 11… reached office by 1230… did some time pass… spoke on the fone to mom, di, pinky singh, dad, bhabhi and roshan.
ate my team’s head and there was lots of friendly banter around… when finally got an sos call for a hospital visit.. so that was that.. picked up a bunch of flowers and went.. spent a lil more than couple hours there.. headed home in shit bangalore traffic but some good paul simon playing in the car so was generally happy! ๐Ÿ™‚
2 calls later my work was done and it was a quiet night.. ๐Ÿ™‚ dinner at sardarji’s dhaba rite behind the house and some paan later i am still listening to paul simon and looking forward to the longish weekend…!
settling down with a book now…
(much looking fwd to going home –> bhopal… its almost like my soul needs it!)
yes.. i guess..”These are the days of miracle and wonder!” ๐Ÿ˜‰


and sometimes she wondered how life could’ve been different…?! could it really have? would it have? ~ and then she smiles, nods and gets along with it!


she likes where she is… it’s her happy place! apart from the fact that she was a full 30 mins late for a play with all credit to the mommy of all traffic jams… and apart from the fact that her car has decided to have a permanent bumping sound… !ย it has been tumultuous but she’s always glad about this place she calls home.. it wasn’t always like this… escape used to be an easy answer.. but after a couple of years of living at “home” it’s all snug. after a long day, after a long journey, after a beautiful trip, after some coffee, before running out into town, after a movie, with a song… the feeling is “om tweet om!”


and so after a happy saturday with a cute lil nut going “you have nice legs, granpa is young and i have a thing for nice elbows”, it was still nice to get home and get snug!


and so now she gets back to a lava lamp acting like it’s got mutant dna in it… ย as she completes the long lost oil on canvas!


me: and im furious and disillusioned
he: that i kinda see
me: ……….
he: awwww ๐Ÿ™‚
me: :-/
he: at least my day wasnt so bad
me: i told ya.. storm brewing on the sides… the darned thing decides to turn into a full blown tusnami and swallow all
he: oops!
me: mooommmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
i need my mmooommmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
he: ๐Ÿ™‚
me: its been long.ย i do need to go home
he: u going around xmas no?
me: yup.ย now all i want is a rich husband and sit and home and have kids and rear dogs
he: that’s not askin for too much at all
me: i knowww!
he: just 1 husband, that all
me: see – 1 husband, 3 kids, 5 dogs and pots and pots of money to keep em all happy
me: yes yes.ย me: keep all their needs satisfied!
me: ok moment of inanity has passed.ย change in plans –ย now have a jamming studio, few dogs, a house in goa and a house in himachal and keep on rocking in a free world!
he: ๐Ÿ˜€

14 minutes
me: so need the rich guy to fund all this
he: hmmm

14 minutes
me: ok ok – so we go back to the rich guy and house in goa scene
he: hehe.ย marry an old guy
me: i know – exactly my thoughts. get a hot chick nurse to take care of him and live my lifeย ๐Ÿ˜‰
he: hahaha
me: ๐Ÿ˜›
he: or a rich gay designer
me: even better.ย good clothes for free and tons of foot massages! ๐Ÿ˜‰
he: ๐Ÿ™‚
me: ๐Ÿ˜‰ and have an affair with you and maybe one more guy! hee hee
he: ๐Ÿ˜€ wat an idea ๐Ÿ˜‰
me: ok so now – mission find me a rich guy
he: rich gay designer u mean ๐Ÿ˜›
me: yes yes – exactly
he: goa may be a good place to start
me: italy wud also be a good idea!
he: never know which wat they swing
me: hmmm…ย ye bhi hai
he: talk about inane conversations!
me: i tell u!!!ย but its made me feel better!


and it was a walk that let her pour her heart out… it was a drive that let the tiniest bits of thoughts settling down on her… it was moments that led her to the finding of her purpose… to the discovery a long term plan or whim as it may seem so!


a parrot jumping out of a leaf nest to take a peek at the real world… its red lined neck turning almost 360 degrees in an attempt to satisfy it’s curiosity!


a house of ants in the making on her clothesline… black ants with red noses and yellow lined bums! ย ants making a house like a honeycomb… the inventiveness was awe striking!


she realized she felt quite blissful without a watch… the intermittent loss of a sense of time helped her stay peaceful!


she slowly took in sight after sight and was particularly mesmerized by a copper dealer’s huge copper cauldron and large green bottles looking genie’s are waiting to pop out of them!


laughed a warm tinkle and screamed ecstatically at sighting her first ever live starfish! starlight.. star bright… shine for me… shine tonight! the sky bereft of stars looked like it had sent them all down here and they had fallen to the ocean floor!


a peacock.. in all it’s glory crosses the road… the crown on it’s head reticent of it’s unknown place on the throne as it craned its’ neck to find the clan!


she sat.. quietly.. giving in to the crashing of subtle ways by a beautiful candle light as the sun set…!


destiny’s child… she felt the loss of something being replaced by the rising of the spirit! when we listen and learn… then anything in life can be our guide!


she sits sleep deprived yet unable to sleep… waking dreams haunt as her hands reach out to the box of paints… she needs it.. she just knows she does…

she closes her eyes… visions entrap her and swirl in her soul as very slowly form begins to take shape…

blue phoenix… a wish to create the perfect storm… a wanton peace in the break of dawn.